I am typing this with only one hand so it will be shorter (Miss Ruth is asleep in my lap).
I have never experienced hard work like this coupled with complete self sacrifice. It's the command we are supposed to live by: serve others, love the Lord...this takes both of those to a whole new level.
I have never lacked confidence like I have in the last almost two weeks. It is most certainly not the most intuitive process (future moms, know this. It will help a lot to know this is something you work hard at and learn). The hormones (I had the easiest pregnancy with no emotional variances) coupled with her tears have just led me to an abundance of tears and multiple embraces from the most beautiful husband/father in the world.
As each day passes, with the grace of God and the knowledge that He did indeed make me to be her mother, coupled with amazing mothers and a husband who filled our room with candles the other night just when I thought I would have to collapse, things continue to fall into their beautiful place.
I have added single parents to my prayer list as well as I have been given a much larger heart for the orphan who doesn't have parents at all.
The beauty of who she is, who my husband is as a father, and how amazing God is to setup something in this world as beautiful as motherhood, has left me in awe (so have our mothers who have each spent the night for quite a few nights).
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
(I did much better at my one handed typing then anticipated! PS: thank you for all of your sweet, encouraging comments...super blessed by all of you)
|So proud of her double chin already! She eats well :) Oh, and she is a perfect mix between Matt and I's baby pics. Thank you, Micah for the pink tutu. Matt picked an all pink outfit the other day complete with the tutu.|
|Miss Morgan, Miss Emma, Miss Anna and Miss Ruth (future best friends only three days apart)|
|What a feeling.|
|Impossible without our beautiful mothers. They just happen to love each other to pieces, too :)|
xoxo, Mama Anna and baby Girl (Miss Ruth)
PS: Baby, thank you for everything. I thought I loved you tons two weeks ago...I had no idea how much more I could adore and respect you in such a short period of time. God sure blessed me with you.
PPS: Ladies- marry someone you want to be just like not someone you hope will be more like you. (just thought of this today and how true it really is)